(thoughts) anything but here, #maddays

Hello! The school holidays have f i n a l l y arrived but they're pretty much dreaded because it's thirty days of being trapped in the sunny island and doing nothing else much but studying ): which is pretty depressing but oh well well spent thirty days of studying is actually going to help me to catch up on all the stuff I've been making excuses for, and hopefully if I use the time well I can prove to myself that I can do it if I set my heart on achieving so.

Tired of feeling like I'm only second best, that I am not doing what is expected of me etc so time to chin up and pull up my socks and go!!!!!!  

But definitely it's a lot harder that it seems to be, three days on and I've not completed my work plan per day, either not working hard enough/not efficient enough or being unrealistic w my goals sigh 😭 

Also I'm super thankful for the holidays, it's a time to rest relax and recharge and really think about what I wanna do in life, three months ago I could tell you what my long established life ambition was but now I'm not sure. There's just too much life has to offer if I want to fight for it (idealist in me speaking here), and I wouldn't want to end up referring decisions I make much later on in life! 

Hope everyone has a good break with your loved ones and be able to spend some quiet alone time just staring into space and not feeling obliged to think about anything in particular. It's quite a nice feeling especially if you've been caught up in the hustle and bustle of life the past few weeks(: 

Here is a magical shot of yen's shoes on madday#3 because all the elements of the universe were cooperating- everything is coincidental - lighting, placement angle and there is no filter(: except I cropped the top off the picture and straightened it ever-so-slightly 

Happy midweek and have a good week ahead 

X

maddy 

PS #maddays is my tag for the thirty days of the holidays so I can look back and see that hey, life isn't as mundane as I thought it would be!!!